TO UNDERSTAND

EVER HAD THE AMAZING FEELING OF TRIUMPH IN THE MOMENT OF PAIN. I CALLED TO THE MOUNTAINS, AS LOUD AS I COULD AND THERE WAS NOBODY TO HEAR MY CRIES. I CALLED OUT TO THE MAN ON THE STREET AND HE JUST GAVE ME THE LOOK OF NOBODY CAN OR SHOULD HELP YOU. I CALLED TO THE PERSON INSIDE OF ME AND I WAS SILENT TO HER.
IT WAS PAIN AND JOY. IT LOSS AND GAIN. IT WAS TEARS AND LAUGHTER. IT WAS ME AND THEM. IT WAS CONFUSION AND UNDERSTANDING. IT WAS MORE THAN JUST HIS FACE AND HATRED FOR THE PERSON HE MADE ME BECOME.
WE WENT OUT DAILY TO ROB, KILL AND EVEN WORSE COVET THE SOULS OF THE INNOCENT. WE WERE AGAINST THE WORLD AND OUR DEPRESSING LIVES. WE THOUGHT FOR THE RIGHT WAY TO DO THINGS AND EVERY TIME WE WENT FOR OUR WAY. I STILL REMEMBER US RUNNING FOR ALMOST HALF A DAY FOR OUR LIVES, AFTER WE HAD TAKEN HIS MOST PRECIOUS OF ITEMS.
I ALWAYS PRAYED FOR THE DAY WE WOULD TURN INTO BETTER PEOPLE AND PAY OUR DUES BY PRAYING... GETTING A JOB OR MAYBE EVEN GOING TO THE SHELTER. GOD FORBID TO EVER CONFORM US AND WE JUST WENT ON. I TRIED TO EXPLAIN TO A BOY WHO HAD BECOME MY FIRST AND ONLY TRUE FRIEND WHY, BUT WHAT HE DID NOT UNDERSTAND WAS THAT IF IT HAD WORKED OUT ANY OTHER WAY HE WOULD BE AMONGST THE DEAD, ALONG WITH US.
SHE LEFT WHEN HE DIED AND NOBODY KNEW US FOR THEY DID NOT UNDERSTAND OUR ORIGIN BUT THEN WHO CARES... WE UNDERSTAND THE STATE OF OUR LIFE AND WE UNDERSTAND THAT GOOD COMES TO THOSE WHO WAIT BUT NOT WHILST SITTING AROUND.
#HUSTLE YES... BUT THE LAW IS WHAT WE SHOULD OF UNDERSTOOD AS WE BEGAN OUR LIFE OF TRYING TO SURVIVE BY ANY MEANS POSSIBLE...